absconditus

honestly. perhaps this is something that i will never get to experience.

i have never been romanced. ever. and it isn’t something you should have to beg for. do men understand? women don’t just want to know that you love them. we want to know that you cherish us. you open the door, sure. but where is the candlelit dinner? the roses for no reason? just grabbing us and telling us how much you love us because you can’t keep it inside. where is that?

i want you to pull me into you while we fall asleep. i don’t want your butt snuggling up against mine. i want you to kiss me in the morning. like you’re as happy i’m there as i am to be there. i need that physical reminder that you want me there.

as a girl, i feel like i need to be reminded that you love me, you want me there, you think i am beautiful. because going through the everyday routine with me doesn’t prove that you love me. it proves that you put up with my presence.

take a chance. make a change. relationships are about loving and caring for another person and wanting to be the best for them.

i want a future of romance and passion and love. i want so much love in my life that i feel i will explode. don’t plan one without these things.

i want to love you and be with you…….but don’t assume my acceptance of your proposal. prove your need for me to.

i am so confused as to where i will be in the next few years. but i want you to be there.