absconditus

there comes a time in every relationship where you ask yourself….way too many questions?

is he worth this? it this real love? what happens now? does it have a future? why?

my entire relationship is so completely fucked up and i don’t even understand why. my boyfriend/non-boyfriend is so completely self consumed that he cannot think to share his life with another person. excuses upon excuses to NOT be in a relationship.

and my question is: is this relationship worth this constant questioning?

i am offering so much. someone to love and care for. someone to come home to. someone that supports you, no questions asked. a family. a future. a life.

is this made-up future i have so much faith in, even a possibility?

am i not enough for him? not enough of a reason to share his life with someone?

i am offering the world. my heart is on the table and it’s too late to pull it off.